before

i haven't been back in dreaming since my last post. something leads me to believe that my level of interaction with the inorganic beings is about to change. i'm sure this is partly due to dreamways' question about what it feels like to be a sorcerer. he never asked me that before, so this dream must be the beginning of a new 'me' somehow. i expect this could entail a change in how i experience the inorganic beings, et cetera, so i figure i ought to write about how i have experienced them up until this point in time....

presence of inorganic beings
the inorganic beings have appeared in my dreaming as everything from mannequins to portions of trees, from children to paintings. when i am lucid, i am nearly 100% sure that they are around, because they always have been. so i just start looking around. for some inexplicable reason, i almost always know "which" part of the dream is going to be the IB. it's usually the first thing i pick. in fact, the only time i ask if anyone present is an IB is if im in a dream full of people and no one immediately stands out. otherwise, i just walk up to one thing and ask. and i'm usually right. after a year of this, i have only two possible explanations for that - first, that since i have inorganic energy myself, i am drawn to it when it's present; second, that the IB actually exists in all of the dream components, so whatever i pick obviously is it.

recognizing inorganic involvement
since i dream with the inorganic beings both lucid and not, there are some important distinctions to point out here. here are some generalizations in my own case:

in a non-lucid inorganic dream:
the inorganic influence shows up as being repulsive and morbid. examples are - pieces of dead bodies, blood, oddly behaving animals, ghosts, animals that appear normal but when you touch them, they are just boneless bags of skin with bizarre shiny black eyes. i figure the actual IB itself is likely the weirdest part of the whole weird dream.

in a lucid inorganic dream:
the inorganic influence does not seem strange or weird at all, but rather something i am drawn to. the IB could be literally anything, but is often a tree or a mannequin or unusual looking person given away by oddities like a flourescent purple wig or an amputated limb.

in a non-lucid dream in the inorganic realm:
the entire dream takes place within an underground, enclosed space - tunnels, subways, railroad tracks, shopping mall, etc.

in a lucid dream in the inorganic realm:
same thing as above except for the lack of other people. frequently im in corridors, hospitals, or hallways that seem maze-like. it is always very dim and there is usually a feeling of being watched coupled with a whispering of voices just out of earshot. the floors are often checkered (think Beetlejuice) and it's difficult to find an IB although i know they're around. if i do find one, they are usually given away by some bright color - pink, green, yellow or violet are ones i see the most. especially flourescent pink or violet. these dreams are the easiest to stay in longer.

after awhile, i just started waking up knowing i had been with them all night.

dropping the facade
when i ask the IB to allow me to see it as it really is - normally i see a sort of four foot tall, glowing, brightly colored blob. sort of like one of those punching balloons kids used to have that are filled with sand at the base, so they keep rocking back and forth. sometimes they look like big, floating, flourescent jellyfish. purple and bright pink are usually the colors i see.

dream tone
if i'm not lucid and not in their world, the dream is very strange, in a morbid and disgusting way. however - maybe it's important to note that i never experience the dream as gross at all until i actually reflect on it in waking. i ought to be seriously disgusted most of the time....but i'm strangely unaffected. every other kind of dream with their involvement doesn't feel strange to me, but perhaps that's just because i'm used to them. i asked them once how long they had been with me, and the response i got was "1993".... so it's been a while. i do often feel like i'm looking for something when i'm not lucid and in their world. when i'm lucid and in their world, i am quiet, because i feel them watching me. when i'm lucid and not in their world, i am anxious to find them.

behavior
if i'm not lucid and not in their world, the IB is usually trying to get me to hold or touch it somehow. if i'm not lucid and in their world, i am not cognizant of one particular IB. if i'm lucid and in their world, they generally leave me off by myself, wandering around while they ignore me... and if i'm lucid but not in their world, they are quick to disclose themselves as IBs, but normally they don't speak otherwise unless i ask questions. also, they give off an air of being bored with me, of arrogance... and i feel like they have most of the control.