the one with "ra da"

september 7th, 2010
i am lucid again in my dad's backyard. this time the sun is coming up. i feel a bit less stable this time. i sit in a quiet place to stabilize the dream. look at my hands, lie down to do the twin positions. i decide it would be a good idea, since i'm in my own dream, to use my voice. i say everything i intend to do before i do it. i intend to stabilize. i intend to do the twin positions. then - i intend to find an inorganic being. i hear some chattering that i can't make out off to my right. i know the ibs are here because that's one way i feel them - like someone whispering out of my sight and i can't make out the words. i see a line of people and animals and stuff sitting on the ground, facing the house. one is a blonde female and another is a middle eastern male in pale robes. i also see a rather friendly-looking polar bear .... i go over to the ones i suspect are ibs and ask aloud if anyone present is an inorganic being. they respond affirmatively, so i get close to them and ask again. the man gets up and turns towards me. i call them, "jinnat", just to see their reaction. i can feel the energy change slightly. then, i call them "ra da"..... and i can feel a big shift. his voice turns into a hiss and i can feel that the word has power for them. his attitude towards me shifts slightly when i use their preferred name. he is trying to guide me somewhere when i lose the dream and wake up.....

notes to self: this dream created a whole new experience of the inorganic beings for me. in retrospect, if this dream is an example of our new relationship, i realize now that my prior interactions with them had been.... 'lazy' or 'soft', for lack of a better word. i liked them and i suppose they liked me - after all, they would just leave me wandering around their world by myself. i wouldn't have known it before, but it wasn't until this dream that i felt that they actually 'saw' me. there was a focused energy coming at me from them, and it felt sharper.... there was a tone of greediness with them - like for once, they wanted something from me that they weren't absolutely sure they were going to get. usually, they're bored of me.