i spent awhile lucid on this particular morning.... my current intents are to visit don juan while lucid and to ask the inorganic beings some questions about my change in energy. i am dealing with some conflict in my dreaming, because i have been dreaming with the inorganic beings for a while and because i enjoy being around them. i am purposely trying to hold off interactions with them to get some work done on my dreaming body. it's a bit frustrating for me, but i know that questions never end - there will always be more... and the important thing is to make my dreaming body and its attention strong so that i can journey farther and make some progress. i couldnt bring all of the following dream back into my memory because it sort of got buried in the night, and after i dreamed it, i went back to sleep and had regular dreams.
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i became lucid on or near a crowded beach. i remember writing some markings in the sand with a twig. it is twilight once again. i begin looking around me at the buildings nearby - it might have been a boardwalk, coney island style - and then repeatedly glancing at my hands. they were very stable and clear... i could feel that i was tired so i lay down to do the twin positions and made sure to lay in the same manner i knew i was sleeping in. the dream became much more solid and i felt anchored there... i knew it would last for awhile. i called to dreamways but he didnt come. i did get scooped up by a slow, warm wind that carried me backwards briefly, but i knew immediately it wasn't him. i figured that i was creating it myself and abruptly stopped. i had questions i wanted to ask the ibs but i felt like i wanted to be available and work on my will and getting back to my body. i went over to a girl at one of the stands nearby and asked her where we were. she had a difficult time replying. i recognized the place as somewhere in new york. i wondererd how i was going to get to myself in arizona. i figured now was a good time to start working with my will...i started trying to pull myself towards things with it, and to vanish others. i had a really difficult time with it which is kind of odd. for the most part, the dream carried on this manner.... i had two more after this one, both re-entries into lucidity, but they were much the same... i remember, for instance, being in a basement type room that was flooding with water. i was struggling to breathe but i kept telling myself that i was dreaming and that i should just calm down and breathe underwater. ... i remember finally getting out of that room and going upstairs to an upper-level room in which i saw two children whispering.... i recognized one of them as my sister as she looked as a child....
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notes to self: in retrospect, the girl i spoke to and the subsequent dreams all could indicate that i was in an ib's dream to start out with, and then in their world. this explains the difficulty i had working to do anything as well as my dull state and perhaps even why dreamways didnt come.... will have to ask him about that...
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