different

 march 19, 2010


totally inappropriate phone call
in bed with r. i am groggy..just waking up and i can feel movement and hear him talking. the rest is short and, as eilias would say, be glad i leave out the details. suffice it to say that in the dream, i was so shaken that i dreamed that i woke up and wrote down a few key words in my dream journal next to the bed. i then dreamed that i went back to sleep and thus became lucid in the second dream:
i find myself in the room that i grew up in. i walk through the wall and sit on the roof. it is very cold and breezy. it is early morning. there is no one around but me. i start to ramp up my lucidity by intending it and by slapping my face. fairly soon i feel stable. i know that i have to meet the group and so i start moving. i dont' remember how i ended up in a crowded mall, but that's where i found myself. the scene is sort of strange in that the people seem to be actually doing their own thing rather than following me around - which is what my dcs do if i engage them in any way. i decide to start looking for energy, so i check my own first. i can feel it, like an electrifiied pressure. it's a very thin, bright and uneven glowing - like a neon wire, around my hand. my ability to see and sense it has grown since the last time i did it. i decide to use the opportunity to check the energy of other items in the dream. i start pointing at individuals around me in the mall who aren't moving too much. i can see their energy, too. i tried with about five different people and noted the differences between them. i saw variations on the same theme: each of the energies i focused on was within a whitish - tan band of color. some were very white...some were a little bit more dull or faded. some were thin, one was very fuzzy. i found one which was very thick - about two inches when the rest were 3/4 of an inch or so. it was very bright and uniform. its color was very true.... it was so bright it took on a greenish yellow tinge. at this point, i decided to look for an inorganic item. i had sort of a feeling where to find it, and i just asked out loud in the dream, "is anyone here an inorganic being?" and got a response. it looked like an older woman in bright pink clothing. she was missing an arm, if i remember correctly, and she was reading a newspaper so that it hid her face. i checked her energy. it was bright yellow and it looked like mine: like a hot neon wire. i asked her to take me to her world to visit and she said, "tomorrow". i took her by the hand and i started moving down. however, i looked up and this stopped my movement. i've never tried this before, so i don't know what that means. i saw her looking down at me, and she looked surprised. she grabbed my hand and then we sped downward. now i'm in a darkish room. they've left me alone to fill out some paperwork in a room by myself. i need to sign a bunch of forms.  some movement in my bedroom must have woken me up, because i wound up awake in bed in no time flat, and it had nothing to do with losing lucidity.

notes to self  (anyone feels free to comment on any of these):
this is the second time recently that i've dreamed of having to sign forms in the IB realm. never had to that before, and am wondering if it means that they are going to attempt to "contract" with me soon. usually, i am in there alone. these past two times i seemed to be trying to escort others into their realm... i am wondering whether the concept of "signing" has to do with bringing in others....?
also - pay more attention. they sidetracked me again by getting me to fall for their stupid signing papers bs. i sit in their realm signing away while they get to profit off my energy and i get nothing.   

not totally sure about the nature of this dream. the "ib" didn't behave or feel like the ones i normally encounter. i'm taking it at face value for now, but am split 50/50 on whether the dream was all projection or not.